Week 20

Feliz año nuevo!!!

 

 

Hey Happy New Year everyone! Wow it's so weird to think 2021 is over. I had a lot happen to be during 2021 that is for sure. I couldn't be more grateful for my year though! What a time to make some awesome goals and start fresh for the New Year! I hope all of you are doing well and have some sick goals to fulfill this year!

 

 

My week was pretty good. I am not going to lie! Every week has its ups and downs but the ups were greater than the downs. We had a good week full of lessons and finding! We've got a few more regular lessons every week which is awesome and then we've found some new people as well! We had one lesson with someone named Alan. He is from Mexico and the Hermanas are teaching him. They invited us to come and me and him clicked instantly. I was joking around, asking questions, ya know basic human interaction stuff. Then as we started to teach the Gospel, he would NOT break eye contact with me. It was weird because with the other people he seemed almost nervous. Staring at the ceiling, looking down at the floor or on his phone, and things like this. However, when it was me... He was locked in. He respected me and liked me. It was really cool to see this tiny blessing for me because we teach people but they don't always listen. Alan listened! Really awesome for me and it made me happy.

 

 

This week My Companion and I had a few rough goes. Unfortunately, my companion isn't motivated to do missionary work. He has told me that he no longer wants to do it. He would rather be on Facebook (Facebook is of the Devil, not kidding.) and waste time waiting till he goes home. He also told me that he waits for me to initiate every study, remind him of our lessons, or tell him what to do. I felt so alone. I felt like this work was all resting on my shoulders and I was carrying this companionship. All of the selfish thoughts came into my head like, "I'm the junior companion, why am I telling him what to do?" "Why won't he listen to me either?" "Why does he get frustrated with me when I tell him we have to do missionary work?" My feelings of sadness and loneliness turned into anger. I have dreaded every minute with my companion. However, this week the Lord humbled Me. During companionship inventory he told me he wants to be better. He said he wants to work again and TRY. I immediately jumped up and said a prayer. Heavenly Father literally smacked me across the head saying, "You know I've got you. I'm always watching it for you. You didn't have to worry!" Guys, when they say missions are not easy... They're not kidding. It is really hard. Especially these last two transfers I have really been struggling, but I can promise you that if you keep going it only gets better. I also can promise you, if you rely on your Heavenly Father... He will strengthen you and make you better.

 

 

Now, I don't share this with you to find a way to complain about my companion (that's what my mom and dad are for). I tell these things to you because I want to illustrate that even in our "perfect" circumstances, like a mission where every minute you're guided to be the best you can, it can be really hard. I just want to promise to all of you that if you pray for that strength you desire so badly to keep going and have enough faith that He will give it to you... You will get it. I'm so grateful for the time I've had on my mission. Happy New Year to all! Let's start this year strong and make some awesome progress. Hope you all are well! Feel free to reach out to me! Stay safe!

 

 

Ether 12:27 - And if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them